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My world collapsed...
August 21, 2018
Do you know this feeling when the sky collapses and destroys everything? Well, I do. Literally.
Everything was normal.... till the day it was not. Till the day my studio ceiling collapsed. Not by itself of course. But let me start from the begging.
You see - we were just renovating the floors in our living room. I had this silly dream of having beautiful, natural maple floors that are actually level (we live in a very old house so when I say having leveled floors is luxury - believe me!). In order to do this, we had to remove the old floors completely. And the subfloor. Basically - we could see insulation between the studio and the first floor. Contractors warned us to be extra careful and guess what? None of us fell to the basement. Not even kids. Not even Anna. Guess who fell? One of the contractors :))))
He is a nice guy, and don't worry - he is fine. He didn't fell completely. Just one of his leg :) But is was enough to stop my studio from running for many weeks. And to stop me from being a photographer for a while. All the equipment had to be removed from the studio. All the furniture. All the props. Yup. Pretty serious. And I won't lie to you - it hit me hard.
I took this time to be with my kids and was convincing myself that maybe this is how it should be. Maybe I don't need to be a photographer. Maybe being a mom is enough. Well, guess what? It turned out I miss my job too much! Don't get me wrong - I loved being with my kids all day, every day (especially in the summer). But I'm not trully happy without my photography. It's not only what I do. It's who I am.
So today is the day to open my studio again. Ceiling is fixed and painted. Hundreds of blankets and little baby hats are all washed. Maternity dresses ready on the hangers. Tears dry. What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.